2020 is the WORST

 So... It's been four years since I last posted on here. Not surprising at all. Yet again, my Blogger bookmark changed from my reading list to my posts page for some odd reason, so I was sort of forced into remembering that this blog existed. I was reading through all of my old Lily updates and I'm so glad I wrote them because there were so many things that I would have forgotten about had I not. I feel like I should make another list but 4 years is a LOT of content when you're discussing a 2-6 year old. I'll give it a try though.

1. For starters, she'll be 7 in a little over a month. How on earth is this possible?
2. She's about to start 1st grade next week. I am not ready at all
3. Not really Lily related, but we're kind of in the middle of a pandemic right now (CoronaVIRUS!)
4. Also, we're currently on track for two (TWO) hurricanes to hit this week. Marco and Laura. I pray they fizzle out before they get here but seeing as it's 2020, I'm sure they'll only get stronger.
5. But back to Lily... She's so smart! She'e been "reading" (sight words and such) for about a year or so but ever since March or April she has really picked it up and can read whole books now. That's how she's always done everything though. She just becomes an expert overnight.
6. She loves to sing and dance still. And as always, her favorites are Taylor Swift and The Chainsmokers. 
7. For the past month or so, she's really been into Full House. She's almost finished with the whole series.
8. YouTube/her Kindle are still life. I think she's on Kindle number 3 now?
9. She LOVES drawing/art. She's actually pretty good at it too. 
10. She still gets pretty anxious and worries over every little thing. Her father just doesn't understand it even though THEY ARE LITERALLY THE SAME PERSON! Any time she stresses herself into a belly ache, he's convinced she has appendicitis or the plague or something else far more terrifying and sinister. 
11. She still drags Petunia around all the time. At this point, I think Petunia has a larger wardrobe than Lily does because Lily insists on going to Goodwill every week and buying Petunia piles of baby clothes. 
12. She is just now getting into playing with her Barbies, too. She was never a huge fan of them before but shes obsessed with them lately.
13. She loves anything educational. Especially nature/animal related. She's always telling me random science facts, and 99% of the time she's correct. 

That's all I can think of for now. I had forgotten that I used to do this. I always loved the idea of blogging, but when it comes down to it, I just can't ever think of what to say. This has been an extremely stressful and chaotic year. I rolled my eyes when they said the world was ending in 2012, but if they were to say that again this year, I would probably believe them. It's been crazy. It's also a leap year/election year and those are always insane. 2012 and 2016 were the absolute worst years ever but I think 2020 may end up topping them both. I worked at Lily's school last year and I really loved it. Unfortunately, my position wasn't carried over into this year. I thought about being a substitute, but I'm still unsure. I still have no clue what I want to do or be. I'm 31 years old, shouldn't I know this by now? Aren't I too old to still be "finding myself"? I just feel lost. And stressed/anxious about everything. Did I mention that I have self-diagnosed myself with anxiety? Honestly though, realizing that I have anxiety has actually helped me to be less anxious. I mean, not completely, but once I realize that I'm stressing out for no reason, it sort of helps me calm myself. Just like realizing that I was depressed helped me pull myself out of a slump. Knowing that I am the one causing all my stress helps me be able to get myself back into a good mindset. It's weird, I know, but what's new about that?

I guess I'm done rambling for now. I thought about changing up the layout and photos on my blog, but it's not like I'm going to start posting religiously or anything. Might as well keep it the same so it can be a little time capsule for the past. This should hold me off for another 4+ years. Peace.